I’m seeing a psychologist but trying to manage thoughts of suicide

Hi @sunlight2451 ,

Thank you so much for reaching out and sharing how you're feeling, that takes a lot of courage, especially when things feel really heavy. It's really positive that you're connected with a psychologist and that you have a safety plan in place, those are important steps in keeping yourself safe. 

It sounds very hard when feeling like services aren't taking you seriously, you deserve to be heard and supported. If things start to feel overwhelming or you don't feel safe with your thoughts, please reach out to immediate support. You can contact:

• Lifeline - 13 11 14
• Suicide Call BACK - 1300 659 467
• Beyond Blue - 1300 224 636
• Your states Mental Health line (quick google search)
• 000 for immediate crisis or unable to keep safe

You've taken a really brave step by sharing this here. The community is here to listen and walk alongside you as you navigate this. You don't have to face it alone

Nala2022 x

Thanks for the resources. I’m safe 

You are most welcome @sunlight2451 , thank you for letting us know you are safe 

You are never alone, and are valued here❤️

Hi @sunlight2451 , I've had those thoughts and feelings too -- including that they won't (can't because they don't have a "program"/funding for it) help unless I end up in hospital. 😢. I know how hard and painful that is, and how hopeless it can feel. (Yes, I am safe; but I know how it feels.)

Can I ask what support (professional or family & friends) you do have at the moment? Do any of them know you are feeling depressed and/or having these thoughts at all?

Can I ask what other supports you would ideally wish for, and the barriers are for you in other supports you might like to have access to?  (e.g. cost, isolated location, transport, worry that you will be hospitalised, worried they will over-react, etc etc)

Seeing a psychologist and my gp

yes they do know I’m feeling like this 

I don’t think I will be hospitalised unless I attempt and it goes wrong. 

@AlwaysMyself 

Hello @sunlight2451, 

I wanted to stop by and introduce myself! I will be here if you need a little extra support as well. 🫶

I am glad you are speaking with a psychologist and GP and that they know how you are feeling, this is most certainly a positive and you should be really proud of yourself for reaching out - that takes a lot of courage.

I know that these feelings are really heavy and prominent for you right now and I can't imagine how hard it would be to hold this sense of not being able to see a future. It truly is such a painful place to be in and one that many of us can relate to...

I am curious, what would you change about your life right now, if you could?

And when was the last time you remember feeling connected to a hopeful future? 

You don't have to answer these questions, of course, but knowing this might help to gain more clarity around what might need to shift for you to feel a bit lighter. 💛

It’s a situation I’m in that I can’t get out of and I need accomodation to move out but I don’t have access to anything. Which is hard because I don’t know how much longer I will be able to go on like this. 

@AuntGlow 

That sounds really hard @sunlight2451 . I am hoping your psych and/or GP have already looked into temporary crisis accommodation for you, to get you out of where you are currently? 

I had a friend who had accommodation crisis a few years ago. Sadly she couldnt find any crisis ones because of her pets. 😢. But we did end up managing to find one friend who could take the pets whilst another friend could give her a place to stay until she could find somewhere affordable to share-rent that allowed her pets too.

I know it can be really hard to see how things might be able to turn out OK. Sometimes it is a matter of keeping on looking and asking - especially when it comes to housing.

Hey @sunlight2451, 

That would be understandably difficult and isolating, and I just wanted to jump in here to leave you some options with finding alternative accommodation 💮 If you are needing crisis accommodation or housing support, there are options and support available to you. You may have heard of some or all of these, but I will add them for you here just in case!

A good place to start is Ask Izzy which is a free resource that can help you to find local services (such as emergency or temporary accommodation, food, financial help, and other kinds of support services). When you search, you are also able to filter results so it’s not overwhelming.

You can also reach out to:

• Local housing access or homelessness services (they can assess your situation and help link you up with crisis accommodation)
• Community housing and support organisations (they often offer case management, advocacy, and help with longer-term housing pathways)
• For living supports you may be able to access case management or outreach support (this can help with housing and appointments and more)
• Community or social support services that support you with daily living and stability

If things do feel unsafe or overwhelming, we encourage you to reach out to the helplines we left above. You are so deserving of having that support! 🌻

Thanks. I just want to end it honestly. But I am trying to stick to recovery like I am accessing support which is a good thing.

I hear you @sunlight2451, 

This all sounds incredibly challenging right now, but I hope it helps to know that you are not alone - that our community are here and that we are so happy to support you throughout your recovery. 

How are things feeling today? 🫶

Sorry I haven’t been on here in awhile. I applied for some government money. I don’t have a job or anything so I don’t have any money, do any places let people like me stay there? 

I’m alright but still finding things really difficult because I don’t have any where else to live and no one in my real life  is really listening to me 

It's good to hear from you, @sunlight2451. No need to apologise for other things being the priority, over this space. We're glad to have you hear whenever it works for you.

Accommodation can be a hard nut to crack. If you haven't done so already, you might like to utilise the Ask Izzy website - a national database of community supports with links to food, housing, etc. Here's a link: https://askizzy.org.au/housing/

Hearing you on how difficult things are right now. Stay in touch with us here. It helps to share. We are listening to you.

I am losing motivation on to find energy to continue looking for jobs and take care of myself and it’s especially hard during neurodivergent burnout.

I’ve had a look at Ask Izzy and I have looked at housing places but nothing so far has suited me or I need money to be able to live there. 

Good evening @sunlight2451 💛

I completely hear you on the neurodivergent burnout front... it must be so exhausting having to take care of yourself, as well as having to look for stable work and housing. It's a lot for the body to hold at once, hey? I know you said that you have been able to access goverment money, which is really positive! I am curious to know if you have looked into chatting with Centrelink's social worker too? They may be able to support you in navigating your house search. Let me know your thoughts on this. ☺️

Not sure about the social worker thing. Also I have applied for government money I haven’t gotten any yet which might take awhile. I just need a break from my parents cause my anxiety has been really high today. 

I hear you @sunlight2451. Needing your home to feel grounded and regulating is more than understandable. 

What could a break from your parents look like tonight?

Is there somewhere safe you could go for a little bit or something you can do for yourself that may be soothing? 🫶

The best thing I ca do is try to wear my headphones and stay in my room at my parents place. There’s no where really I can go 

Hey @sunlight2451 just wanted to check in on how things are feeling today? Were you able to get a break from your parents, even if it was just being in the other room?

I have gotten a break from my parents in another room which is good but I'm still not doing great 

What's happening for you @sunlight2451 ?

Lots of things. I’m just stressed and in burnout so that’s quite difficult. Some days are better than others. Just need to get out of my parents house and someone might say “use that for motivation” I’m doing everything I can and it’s still not doing it. I’m safe but sometimes I just wish I wasn’t me.