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Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm
Managing thoughts of suicide & self-harm

Emotionally Exhausted.

Din1 Casual Contributor

Emotionally Exhausted.

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I haven’t posted in a while, back in January/February I had an extremely close call to both suicide and detrimental self harm. I’ve been off work since then and it’s been one emotional thing after another. My Dad died back in August. I don’t think I posted since before that. It was traumatic and I watched him take his last breath. I have no more parents and I’m only 32. Yeah I know there’s people out there younger with worse and that’s true. I watched my parents suffer to death long and painfully and literally suffocate. 
my self harm has gotten so bad that I needed the specialised hand clinic due to close tendon lacerations. I’m tired, I’m so fkn tired. 
I wish I had the ability to compartmentalise like my brother. I know that’s not a healthy option either. But I’m so tired of the disassociation especially while hurting myself and coming to realising I took a bit too much meds and cut a little too deep. 

I don’t expect a response I’m just venting that I’m beyond exhausted.

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c-user1999 Member

Re: Emotionally Exhausted.

Hey @Din1 ,

 

I hear you, what your carrying is massive, losing both parents and doing all that while fighting so hard yourself. 

 

You're allowed to be exhausted by all of it. I'm glad you're still finding the words while going through so much. If there's anyone on your care team you can reach out to, even just to check in, I hope you will. 

 

Thought I would share this space with you, Sharing Mental Health Resources Online. 

This space is here for the hard days too, not just recourses, but people who get it. 

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Din1 Casual Contributor

Re: Emotionally Exhausted.

I just feel so mentally suffocated and on top of everything I’m mentally there for someone else just as fkd up as me when I barely have the space to protect myself. I’m not half hearted with her but she’s become a little bit much and sorry to say but a burden that my friends are encouraging me to block. I feel guilty but I’m tired with myself and I’m tired with this person. 

I found a psychologist since last posting which is a positive but I truly believe I’m that screwed up for anyone to help me but I’m giving it a try. I’m giving it an open minded try honestly. I’m so desperate.. 

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Jynx Peer Support Worker

Re: Emotionally Exhausted.

Hearing you @Din1. As they say, 'you cannot pour from an empty cup'. It can be difficult to take a step back from supporting someone, especially if wee care about them and don't want them to suffer alone. Blocking may be one option, but if the guilt would become too heavy for you, perhaps it's more about implementing some firm boundaries, and then sticking to them (e.g. telling this person you need a few weeks to yourself, and that you won't be available to them, and then ensure you refrain from replying to them for any reason outside of an emergency, for instance). 

 

I'm glad to hear you've found a psych and that you're willing to give it a go. I don't believe any person is ever too 'screwed up' to be able to make progress and positive changes - we just need the right environment and support around us. I hope this psych is a good fit, and helps you to feel safe to open up. 

 

All the best on your journey 💜

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