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Hey there @OverwhelmedSoul,

Welcome to the SANE forums!

It sounds like your username is quite fitting with everything that's going on for you at the moment 🙁 I can see that you're dealing with multiple losses (not just of loved ones but also a career that you worked so hard for!), past family traumas, and current family conflicts.

It's so understandable to not really know what to do, when many things that form your identity in life has been challenged recently! Whilst this is a really uncomfortable space, it's also okay to be feeling this way. The struggle that you're going through right now doesn't make you broken goods, it just makes you human.

It might take some time, and some support, but it can be possible to find yourself again after all of this 🌼 Sharing it here is a really great start! But I also encourage you to seek some professional support (if you're not already!), so that you can have safe spaces to reflect on what all of these events mean for you.

If you need counselling support immediately (I know that waiting times can be long in some face to face services!) There are some phone counselling services that are available for free like Beyondblue, Blueknot, and Griefline

I hope that you're giving yourself some extra compassion and care as you go through this, much like how you offered it to your husband when he needed it! Because you definitely deserve it!

Take care 🌻

Hi @OverwhelmedSoul 

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing something so personal, it sounds like you’ve been carrying an overwhelming amount of grief, stress and change all at once.

I’m really sorry to hear about the people you’ve lost, especially your grandmother who you were so close with. On top of that, losing your job of 12 years and experiencing ongoing family and relationship strain sounds incredibly destabilising. Anyone in your position would find this extremely heavy to cope with.

I also want to gently reflect that feeling like “broken” or “damaged goods” is a really painful place to be in, but it doesn’t sound like a fair reflection of you. It sounds more like someone who has been trying to hold on and keep going through a lot of loss, responsibility, and lack of support.

You don’t have to navigate all of this on your own. It might help to connect with supports where you can talk this through in more depth and not have to carry it by yourself. @MindfulMango suggested some and I've listed a couple more options if you feel it would help:

• Lifeline – 13 11 14 (24/7)

• Or your GP, who can support you with referrals and ongoing care

I’m really glad you reached out here 💛

Hi @OverwhelmedSoul 

Nice to meet you here where you will always be welcomed and supported. 

I acknowledge that your pain is real and that you are on a bumpy road, but assure you that you're not alone.

Family members don't always actually understand how our suffering and mental state can be truly debilitating.

There is hope for you is your journey toward wellness. Although that might not seem possible in your heart and mind

Go gently dear friend 💙 

Taali