Gimme a break.

I finished my last dose of antidepressant [edited by moderator] about 2 weeks ago, I'd weaned off it because I couldn't hack the side effects, namely nausea. Since coming off completely I've noticed a plunge in my mood, so I think it was somewhat assisting with my peaks and troughs. A quick google tells me it takes about 21 days for this medication to wash out, so I'm hopeful I'll feel a little better in another week. 

However, whatever my next move with medication, it's lifestyle stuff that needs to shift for me to make a difference. I feel stuck with that stuff and would love any insights people have.

I'm in my late 30s and have a relatively healthy body, however my motivation levels are super low at present. I had nose surgery (septorhinoplasty with turbinectomy) 10 weeks ago for improving my breathing. I work 4 days/week in a stressful clinical admin heavy job. I care for my partner who has a chronic illness and often can't do stuff around the house because of this. I'm currently ineligible for carer gateway supports because my partner is registered with them as my carer for my mental health but we don't get anything from them at present because there's too much admin for my partner to organise getting help. 

Keeping our home clean and organised feels like a losing battle. We pay for a fortnightly cleaner which is sometimes helpful but our cleaner (while a lovely person) often breaks things as they have their own issues. We love in a rural area where there is little choice for services like this. 

We have primary aged kid who has a few after/before school activities. It takes every last scerric of energy to get them to their activities, complete a full day of work, make/buy meals. 

I'm in survival mode. 

Organising fun things sounds nice but doesn't feel doable. I have great goals for my life and my family but nothing feels achievable right now.